I fucking cant stand this shit anymore! this is a rant and I need to vent this so if you dont want to read, thats fine.

I have moved in with my Fiance' and I couldnt be happier on that decission IF my mom and the rest of that family would stop calling me a "fuck up and im making a big mistake and because of this Im a screw up"

Heres the thing:

My mom is a mother fucking control freak and manipulator! ever since the middle of the 1st card marking she has been on my case for the most pointless shit, just to find a reason to bitch and moan about anything. Since this has progressed into yelling just a few inches from my face, Ive been stressing to the point where my hair is falling out (again), im losing my appetite, and most importantly, my grades have taken a dump DRAMATICALLY.

at school, im not motivated because all i can think about is "What am I gonna get yelled at for this time?" and i cant concentrate let alone eat much at lunch.

this time she got to the point where she said I'm stupid and a fuck up for failing a programming class that I HAVE NEVER DONE BEFORE!!!

in that class we do codings for programs in C# language and for me its difficult since i never had any experience with the stuff and im failing the class. she doesnt understand you cant study for that class and its difficult to try and memorize EVERY SINGLE code line and the function
(ex: Console.Writeline("Blah");
Console.ReadLine();
input=Convert.ToInt32(());
ToInt32.Convert({0}+{65});
Console.ReadKey;
Close.This; )
Understand that??

we'll with shit like that and dealing with everyone in my face on how much im worthless and how Ill never become anything in life, i was sick of it and moved out, Right now I'm doing fine. but oh wait! I get a fucking call from her this morning and she tells me she takes $800 bucks from my OWN fucking account and its in "safe charge" because she thinks Im going on a shopping spree, that leaves me with 184 bucks from my own hard earned back breaking money! I worked my ass off for 2 years at the auditorium to get that far! (im only paid 7.50 an hour and get about 6-7 hours a day and work between 2-3 days a week)

I find it bull shit and controlling that she did that when I HATE spending my money and that is what I worked hard for!! and on top of that she tells me that i ruined her and how i "ripped her heart out" when she has stripped me of my esteem and motivation to do anything! THATS FUCKED UP

now her, my aunts and even my own sister are on my ass saying the same damn things she is.

RIght now I cant even call them family!, for family doesnt bring a member down to the point of thoughts of SUICIDE let alone take their money and hold it as a threat of if i dont graduate or move back home I wont get that back.

if they read this and want to disown me from the "Family" like my father did, let them, I dont care! it just shows how weak and pathetic they are to tear at a 17 almost 18 yr olds dreams till they are just wishes and hopes that are thought to never happen.